Eleutherophobia Sat Nov 20, 2010 7:14 pm
Trouble began, it had always seemed, that following year when the bank was shuttered, and Margot got that magic set for Christmas. With the tree lit up like a perfect little chemical fire, and the two sisters bouncing down the stairs, still in their nightgowns, the world came to a stop, so close to perfect that the air even tasted like gingerbread. The world had reached its end at a mess of folding chairs, arranged in a lopsided, incomplete attempt at a circle. Against a beige-painted wall sat a card table with a coffee machine and some Styrofoam cups and a paper plate with some questionable pastries. More chairs were lined up against it, and decorations from the youth Thanksgiving play littered a corner. The hall door had been left open just a crack, and microphoned mutterings from a community summit on recent crime patterns trickled in as odd consonants and echoing vowels.
She had one leg tuck behind the other, its heel sort of nervously tapping out an SOS tattoo against the olive drab carpet. Tallish black boots swallowed whole the bottoms of her charcoal pinstriped legs. Her eyes darted toward the thermostat, and she strained against tortoiseshell Wayfarers, but could not quite make out how vindictively cold it was.
Maybe she saw her breath. Maybe it was nothing.
Black gloves, cable-knit ones with no fingers but buttoned-over mitten convertibles spewed from a big pocket in her coat. It was a tweed trench, a lightish kind of un-dyed grey with a nice warm hood and dark, paisley-patterned lining in the inside. A black scarf hung from the back of her chair, its knot still blossoming unkemptly toward one end. In politely removing it when she had walked in, she had sort of mussed up her hair, and now the overflowing pile of autumn orange curls frayed and spun at the edges, cut just under a bob.
The girl coughed, hoarsely, and a silver cross jumped from her neckline for a moment, resettling, now twisted the other way.
Only five or six came to regularly bare their souls to strangers; them, and the civil-servant-salaried social worker with a shaved head and a tattoo peeking from her collar. A sans-serif sign reading
‘Coping with Loss During the Holidays: Wednesday 8p’ hung itself from a thumbtack on the bulletin board in the library’s green-and-grey linoleum hallway. Fara chewed at her bottom lip and rubbed a hand against the flushed sneeze of freckles on her cheek while an anemic looking man with a weird pattern of acne scars sobbed about his dog.