These are recordings made on a cheap voice recorder, the type of recorder that uses the micro-cassettes, which were all the rage back in the early 90s. The voice in the recorder is Trauma, as she speaks to herself while alone at her apartment.
A clicking noise is heard in the recording, followed by a slight distortion as the micro cassette began to unwind, "Hello? Testing. Did I hit the right button this time?" the recording cuts off, then picks up again.
"Well I feel stupid. Here I am, alone, talking into a machine larger than my hand. I don't even know why that man was carrying this old piece of junk. The pawnshop wouldn't even take it. Since I'm stuck with it, I may as well put it to use. I haven't had a diary in my entire life, probably because of the whole 'being blind' thing. Alright, let's start with introductions. I am Trauma, simply Trauma, a 22 year old loser who is very familiar with Murphy's Law. I guess I could go on about how my past is a jumbled mess, and how I have always managed to be in the wrong place at the wrong time with the wrong people... but this isn't a sob story. I do not seek the pity of others. I despise when people pity me.
"The thing about me is... well, all my life I've tried to fit in to something. Heck, in my teenage years I used to run with some really stupid people just for the sake of feeling I belonged. Looking back I should have shot them all in the head, but at the time, it was amazing for me. I knew they were retarded, and I played myself stupid just to 'fit in', but what's the point of acting a part if it's not really you? Then again, that leaves me with the question: who am I? I know my name, I know my age, I know my past... but I have no definition of who I am. Perhaps it's the fact I've never seen myself. I have no concept of how I look other than what people tell me... or perhaps it's the fact that, up until recently, I've been a dumb bitch trying to fit in with a group of morons. I think I lost myself at some point... and it's left me with a rather hollow feeling inside. I don't know who I am, so I have no reason to preserve myself. Don't get me wrong, I'm not suicidal or anything, but I don't feel like I should care for my physical well-being. Is that wrong? It doesn't feel wrong. In fact, this is the best I've felt in years!"
A noise is heard in the background, like a light thump. There is another click on the recording and it goes blank.
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A clicking noise is heard in the recording, followed by a slight distortion as the micro cassette began to unwind, "Hello? Testing. Did I hit the right button this time?" the recording cuts off, then picks up again.
"Well I feel stupid. Here I am, alone, talking into a machine larger than my hand. I don't even know why that man was carrying this old piece of junk. The pawnshop wouldn't even take it. Since I'm stuck with it, I may as well put it to use. I haven't had a diary in my entire life, probably because of the whole 'being blind' thing. Alright, let's start with introductions. I am Trauma, simply Trauma, a 22 year old loser who is very familiar with Murphy's Law. I guess I could go on about how my past is a jumbled mess, and how I have always managed to be in the wrong place at the wrong time with the wrong people... but this isn't a sob story. I do not seek the pity of others. I despise when people pity me.
"The thing about me is... well, all my life I've tried to fit in to something. Heck, in my teenage years I used to run with some really stupid people just for the sake of feeling I belonged. Looking back I should have shot them all in the head, but at the time, it was amazing for me. I knew they were retarded, and I played myself stupid just to 'fit in', but what's the point of acting a part if it's not really you? Then again, that leaves me with the question: who am I? I know my name, I know my age, I know my past... but I have no definition of who I am. Perhaps it's the fact I've never seen myself. I have no concept of how I look other than what people tell me... or perhaps it's the fact that, up until recently, I've been a dumb bitch trying to fit in with a group of morons. I think I lost myself at some point... and it's left me with a rather hollow feeling inside. I don't know who I am, so I have no reason to preserve myself. Don't get me wrong, I'm not suicidal or anything, but I don't feel like I should care for my physical well-being. Is that wrong? It doesn't feel wrong. In fact, this is the best I've felt in years!"
A noise is heard in the background, like a light thump. There is another click on the recording and it goes blank.
[end of log/to be continued]